You push yourself on me Force
yourself on me Free yourself through me
You
better save yourself from me Every time you want me
to be Something I could never be Guess you'll
have to wait and see Till the next time that you
have to
COME AGAIN!
I hate myself for
you I break myself for you I'd kill myself for
you I'd better save myself from you Everytime
you want me to be Something I could never be
Guess you'll have to wait and see Till the next
time that you have to
COME AGAIN!
If you
have to walk my way Have somethingto say Get the
fuck away Can't take one more day I cannot
conform
COME AGAIN!
3. Break
I walk alone I am alone I think
alone I'll die alone Don't think I can make it
on my own I think I need someone to SAVE ME!
Such is life So sad but true Kill
everything That's close to you Try to decide
what not to do You know you cannot CONTROL ME!
I don't see the point in Going any further
Than we've gone already Can't keep my hands
steady
Sadness Everyday for me You can't
Take that away from me All these fuckin thoughts
inside my head Are almost more than I can take
You push and pull on me Your gonna keep pushin
Till I break
You think you control me
Have no chains to hold me Only thing that saves
me Voices just might kill me
Sadness
Everyday for me You can't Take that away
from me All these fuckin thoughts inside my head
Are almost more than I can take You push and
pull on me Your gonna keep pushin Till I break
4. Painful
I light another cigarette Stop to
think about it Come to no conclusions Take each
step as it comes Hold no prisioners except myself
Painful thoughts denied
Try to explain
My loss of words Fuck you I piss upon you all
My head is a barricade Filled with peaceful
thoughts With evil outcomes No one understands
Try to break the barrier I see no outlet No
ones there to catch me when I fall
Try to
explain My loss of words Fuck you I piss upon
you all
5. Nameless
The walls around me caving in
Cracked and grey Remind me of myself, I need
some help There's no one else I'm empty
Addicted Pissed off And still afraid Of
what you Have left me To live in This mess
you've made
I feel... Useless...
Jaded... Nameless
the ride is over I've
come down Hate to be Can't rely upon myself, for
my own health I'm so fucked up Distorted
Dysfunctional and drained All my deep rooted
Fears seem to get The best of me
I
feel... Useless... Jaded... Nameless
I hate the way you fuck with me You can't
rely on open eyes to see I force these painful
visions from my head You won't be happy till I break
down
I feel... Useless... Jaded...
Nameless
6. Mudshovel
You take away I feel the same
You take away I feel the same All the
promises you made to me you made in vain I lost
myself inside your tainted smile again
Cause you
can feel my ANGER You can feel my pain You can
feel my torment Driving me insane I can't fight
these feelings they will bring you pain You can't
take away Make me whole again
I feel
betrayed Stuck in your ways And you rip me apart
With the brutal things you say I can't deal with
shit anymore I just look away
Cause you can
feel my ANGER You can feel my pain You can feel
my torment Driving me insane I can't fight these
feelings they bring only pain You can't take away
Make me whole again
Mudshovel
You
take away I feel the same All these promises
You promised only pain If you take away And
leave me with nothing again
'Cause you can feel
my ANGER You can feel my pain You can feel my
torment Driving me insane I can't fight these
feelings they will bring you pain You can't take
away Make me whole again
You will feel my
anger You will feel my pain You will feel my
torment Driving you insane I can't fight these
feelings they will bring you pain You won't take
away I'll be whole again
Mudshovel
7. See Thru All
WHAT IS YOUR FUCKING PROBLEM!?
...You wanna know what my problem is?
Alone,
I walk beside myself Alone, you put me on your shelf
Alone, with my insanity Alone, no one to blame
but me But if you had told me when I was much
younger That life has a way of pulling you right
under I wouldn't be standing here preaching my hate
I stand at the edge staring into my fate
I see thru you What makes you think that
you're god Pick up the pieces as I fall apart
Why must you fuck with me
Betrayed, You left
me here for dead Betrayed, By the voices in my head
Betrayed, left my out in the rain Betrayed,
nothing left but pain I'm sick of the answers
Your cannibal instincts and false dedications
You leave me here cold, nothing left but my shell
To die while I'm living and burn in my hell
I pick you apart little by little
Till nothing is left but the look on your face
Once inside our I can get at what's inside
Beneath your facad I can see your discrase The
walls that you build up will crumble around you The
pain you will feel as you wither away The sun though
it comes up will warm you... No longer
8. Question
Which way do I go?
Pain I
swallow I cannot keep it down Hate I swallow I
cannot keep it down
Down
You I hate you
I cannot keep you down You I'll rape you I cannot
keep it down
Down
You before me I
can't take any more Of what you have to offer My
ears are sore Leave my feelings In a heap by the
door Can't go up any futher Come crashing back
down
9. No One's Kind
What the fuck's the purpose I didn't
scratch the surface Immune to what your saying
All along decaying Can't see thru the fire
Darkness lone desire Quiet in my corner
Building up the border
Can't stand the way
you make me feel today No One's kind is all you'll
ever be
Can't see thru the rain Too much
time No sublime losss of energy No symmentry
Fuck soceity Lost in nievate
Can't stand
they way you break me... Can't take the pain you
break me.... Can't bite the hand that feeds me...
Can't take away what's in me
Addicted to the
feelings Lose touch with all I've know The
cobwebs on the cieling Make me aware that I'm all
alone
The endless rain washes all away Makes
clean the mess I have made
10. Self Destruct
Watch me suffer You'll feel better
Stick the needle in my vein Lost my feelings
with my dealing Thoughts of only you remains
FUCK
Rip and tear In my dispair
agonizing over shit Feel the needle burn and
tingle My bad habits deal with it
FUCK
I will self destruct
My light has slowly
faded Broken and degredated Suffocate in my
sorrow Maybe I'll die tomorrow This riot that
I've sited Camt to you uninvited Truth hurts
when it's in your face Are you afraid of it?
11. Four Walls
The thoughts from my mind Command my
lips say I hate you The thoughts from my mind
Command my hands to cut your silken flesh The
thoughts from my mind Command my feet to stomp your
head The thoughts from my mind have one question...
When will this ever end?
Not much to the
life I live Same 4 Walls I have nothing left to
give Please take it all away.... Same 4 Walls
The thoughts from my mind Feel the pain as
rats claw at my flesh
The thoughts from my mind
Feels the joy as the needls hits my vein The
thoughts from my mind Smells the stench as shit runs
down my leg The thoughts from my mind ask for sanity
Now for this I beg
The thoughts from
my mind Command my lips say I hate you The
thoughts from my mind Command my hands to cut your
silken flesh The thoughts from my mind Command
my feet to stomp your head The thoughts from my mind
have one question... WHEN WILL I BE DEAD?
I feel nothing Longing for something
Lie in bed to take your clothes off Show me what
you're made of Drugs to soothe me
(All
alone) Leave me here I'm dying (All alone)
Just kicked me in my face (All alone) All
alone and crying (All alone) I suffocate
I'm not gifted Slightly twisted Try hard
try hard To see if I can push you any further
Drugs to soothe me
(All alone) Leave me
here I'm dying (All alone) Just kicked me in my
face (All alone) All alone and crying (All
alone) I suffocate
Please believe you'll
save me, rearrange me I can feel your feelings
running through me Take away my sorrow my tomorrow
Heal me
(All alone) Leave me here I'm
dying (All alone) Just kicked me in my face
(All alone) All alone and crying (All alone)
I suffocate
I'm suffocating SUFFOCATE
(come suffocate)
2. Just Go
I'm kinda numb It's so distorted
You left me here with this damage that you've caused
My tortured faces I've fucked up places In
my memories none of them I've lost, but...
I
haven't been here long enough to know Everytime I
feel this I just lose control Such a cancer on the
face of everything that's beautiful I wish that this
would just go, go.
It's kinda sick I feel so
dirty I'm kinda tragic kinda insecure But I know
that I'm the only One that can fix whatever's wrong
I'm sure, but...
I haven't been here long enough
to know Everytime I feel this I just lose control
Such a cancer on the face of everything that's
beautiful I wish that this would just go, go.
I feel so alone From all I've become
I'll take you down I'll feel so down I'm
water while you drown You're lifted while I'm down
I'm cancer in your womb I'm the needle in your
spoon, but...
I haven't been here long enough to
know Everytime I feel this I just lose control
Such a cancer on the face of everything that's
beautiful I wish that this would just go, go.
Just Just Just Just go Go Go
All these fucking lies [3x] All your fucking
lies [3x]
3. Me
I hear you talk about your family life
I wish I knew just what that means I guess my
mother never loved my dad And now I wear it on my
sleeve
My sister called me just the other day
It felt so good to hear her voice My problem is
I don't have much to say I guess she doesn't have a
choice, and I'm sorry
Look at me I'm so pathetic
I can't believe I'm just an addict I've never
needed anyone to help me I'm begging you to please
come save me from myself, save me from my...
My
mothers always tried to change herself She never
learned to let things be She doesn't know how bad
she messed me up 'Cause now she seems so fake to me
but I love her
Look at me I'm so pathetic I
can't believe I'm just an addict I've never needed
anyone to help me I'm begging you to please come
save me from myself, save me from myself
If you
push me then I won't fall I've been programmed to
take it all And shove it way down inside
Like my father [2x]
I'm so pathetic I
can't believe I'm just an addict I've never needed
anyone to help me (I'm failing it) I'm begging you
to please come save me from myself
I hear you
talk about your family life I wish I knew just what
that means
4. Raw
RAW
The pictures left with me
won't fade These images affect me every day
Cause of you I feel I don't deserve The life I
see in her
Just don't leave me RAW
Inside I'm so cold Inside I'm so cold
RAW
I've never been someone who knows
My choices haunt me everywhere I go Finally did
something right for myself My life to you no one
else
Just don't leave me RAW
Inside
I'm so cold Inside I'm so cold
I'm so cold
I feel so cold
I CAN'T TAKE THIS RAW
I feel so...
Inside I'm so cold Inside
I'm so cold
RAW
I feel so:
RAW
5. Mudshovel
You take away I feel the same
You take away I feel the same All the
promises you made to me you made in vain I lost
myself inside your tainted smile again
Cause you
can feel my ANGER You can feel my pain You can
feel my torment Driving me insane I can't fight
these feelings they will bring you pain You can't
take away Make me whole again
I feel
betrayed Stuck in your ways And you rip me apart
With the brutal things you say I can't deal with
shit anymore I just look away
Cause you can
feel my ANGER You can feel my pain You can feel
my torment Driving me insane I can't fight these
feelings they bring only pain You can't take away
Make me whole again
Mudshovel
You
take away I feel the same All these promises
You promised only pain If you take away And
leave me with nothing again
'Cause you can feel
my ANGER You can feel my pain You can feel my
torment Driving me insane I can't fight these
feelings they will bring you pain You can't take
away Make me whole again
You will feel my
anger You will feel my pain You will feel my
torment Driving you insane I can't fight these
feelings they will bring you pain You won't take
away I'll be whole again
Mudshovel
6. Home
I force myself through another day
Can't explain the way today just fell apart like
everything Right in my face And I try to be the
one I can't accept this all because of you I've
had to walk away From everything
I'm afraid
to be alone Afraid you'll leave me when I'm gone
I'm afraid to come back home
Another
sleepless night again Hotel rooms my only friend
And friends like that just don't add up To
anything And I try so hard to be everything That
I should never take away from you again 'Cause I
heard ya say
I'm afraid to be alone Afraid
you'll leave me when I'm gone I'm afraid to come
back home
I cannot forget I live with regret
I cannot forget I live with...
I'll live
through this I can't see through this I can't do
this anymore
I'm afraid to be alone Afraid
you'll leave me when I'm gone I'm afraid to come
back home
Afraid you'll leave me when I'm gone
I just wish I was back home Home
7. A Flat
Trust In me can't trust I know, I
don't believe it All my life so scarred what
for, you can't conceive it Everything you fear
I'll be, you couldn't live it I whisper in your
ear so loud, why can't you hear it
I'm OK
All my faith is gone you think I couldn't
find it Pieces falling down shattered, nothing
behind it In my mind alone, Lost here I'm
separated Crawl deeper in my hole safe here from
what I hated
All the demons in my head won't
leave me I know I can hear them All the
sacrifices made for nothing Don't show can't believe
it Want to show that I'm good for something I
can't you won't let me All your artificial words
won't heal me Because you can't accept me
And I hate myself And I hate my face And
I hate my world And I hate my ways
And I
And I And I
I'M NOT OK!
I'm OK
Trust In me can't trust Iknow, I don't
believe in All my life so scarred what for,you
can't conceive it Everything you fear I'll be,
you couldn't live it I whisper in your ear why
can't you feel it
All the demons in my head
won't leave me I know I can hear them All the
sacrifices made for nothing Don't show can't believe
in Want to show that I'm good for something I
can't you won't let me All your artificial words
won't heal me Because you can't accept me
I
don't believe it [2x]
8. Crawl
I'm so lonely You're so beautiful
Not the only One that's pitiful
Scratched and torn I lay here in pieces
Craving all of your deadly vices Like to think
that I'm not addicted But I guess I wear it well
And I crawl While you spit And I crawl
Through you
Here I am now Not a lot has
changed Nothing' better Everything's the same
Late at night I can hear your voices Talking
shit about all my choices You would think you've
known me forever Just because you know my name
And I crawl While you spit And I crawl
Through you
Everything falls apart
Everything... [3x]
Everything falls apart
Everything [3x]
And I crawl While you
spit And I crawl Through
9. Spleen
Can't breathe! Shut up [2x]
I
feel I give everything to you
Can't breathe!
Shut up [2x]
I think there's nothing left to
do
Can't breathe! Shut up [2x]
I
don't like today, take it all away Just like what
you say - I don't want you
Kinda like the way,
everything is gray Just like what you say - I don't
need you
I don't look like you, do the things
you do But I'm fucked up too - I don't need you
Can't breathe! Shut up [2x]
I feel
you are what's changed my soul
Can't breathe!
Shut up [2x]
I think I'll never lose control
Can't breathe! Shut up [2x]
I don't
like today, take it all away Just like what you say
- I don't want you
Kinda like the way,
everything is gray Just like what you say - I don't
need you
I don't look like you, do the things
you do But I'm fucked up too - I don't need you
I don't understand it You're killing this
planet The scabs on your face It's a fucking
disgrace I blame you [2x]
I blame you
[5x]
Can't breathe! Shut up [2x]
I'm
don't like today, take it all away (shut up) Just
like what you say - I don't want you (shut up)
Kinda like the way, everything is gray (shut up)
Just like what you say - I don't need you (shut up)
I don't look like you, do the things you do
(shut up) But I'm fucked up too - I don't need you
(shut up)
10. Excess Baggage
Well I know the words, but I can't
really speak them To you
And I hide all the
pain that I've gained with my wisdom From you
And I'm eaten alive by what I hold inside
All the things that I live with I can't easily hide
And I'm left here with nothing, nothing to live for
But you
It's not easy to hide All this
damage inside I'll carry you with me Until I'm
not alive
When you look at my face, does it seem
just as ugly? To you?
I can't seem to erase
all the scars I have lived with From you
I'm
so sick of this place This taste in my mouth
Cause of you I can't figure what I'm all about
And I'm left here with nothing, nothing to live for
But you
It's not easy to hide All this
damage inside I'll carry you with me 'Til I'm
not alive.
As I walk along these streets I see a
man that walks alone Distant echo of peoples
feet He has no place to call his own A shot rings
out from a roof over head A crack head asks for
change nearby An old man lies in an alleyway
dead A little girl lost just stands there and
cries
What would you do, if it was you Would
you take everything for granted like you do?
A
boy just 13 on the corner for sale Swallows his pride
for another hit Overpopulation there's no room in
jail But most of you don't give a shit That your
daughters are porno stars and Your sons sell death to
kids You're so lost in your little worlds Your
little worlds you'll never fix
What would you do,
if it was you Would you take everything for granted
like you do?
You turn away As I walk along the
streets Soaking up the cold rain Underneath the
taxi cabs I hear the streets cry out in
vain
What would you do, if it was you Would
you take everything for granted like you
do?
2. Pressure
I just need this to be all right I
can't feel this another night
I can't take this I
come unglued I just need this to be alright I
can't feel this another night
I can't take this I
come unglued I might breakdown in front of
you necessary to medicate I'm not sleeping, can't
stay awake
Can't see through this Too much
pressure Drowning in this Too much
pressure
If you need me I'll be here Half
unconscious to escape my fear
I can't take this I
come unglued I might breakdown in front of
you necessary to medicate I'm not sleeping, can't
stay awake
Can't see through this Too much
pressure Drowning in this Too much
pressure
My head hurts this shit isn't getting me
high My chest is so tight am I going to die My
stomach's in knots and the room starts to spin As I
wait for this valium to slowly kick in
Can't see
through this Too much pressure Drowning in
this Too much pressure
TOO MUCH
PRESSURE!
3. Fade
I try to breathe Memories overtaking
me I try to face them but The thought is too much
to conceive
I only know that I can
change Everything else just stays the same So now
I step out of the darkness that my life became
'cause
I just needed someone to talk to You
were just to busy with yourself You were never there
for me To express how I felt I just stuffed it
down Now I'm older and I feel like I could let
some of this anger fade But it seems the surface I am
scratching Is the bed that I have made
So
where were you? When all this I was going
through You never took the time To ask me just
what you could do
I only know that I can
change Everything else just stays the same So now
I step out of the darkness that my life became
'cause
I just needed someone to talk to You
were just to busy with yourself You were never there
for me To express how I felt I just stuffed it
down Now I'm older and I feel like I could let
some of this anger fade But it seems the surface I am
scratching Is the bed that I have made
I never
meant to fade... Away
I NEVER MEANT TO
FADE
I just needed someone to talk to You were
just to busy with yourself You were never there for
me To express how I felt I just stuffed it
down Now I'm older and I feel like I could let
some of this anger fade But it seems the surface I am
scratching Is the bed that I have made
I try
to breathe...
4. It's Been A While
And it's been awhile Since I could
hold my head up high And it's been awhile Since I
first saw you And it's been awhile Since I could
stand on my own two feet again And it's been
awhile Since I could call you
And everything I
can't remember As fucked up as it all may seem The
consequences that I've rendered I've stretched myself
beyond my means
And it's been awhile Since I
can say that I wasn't addicted And it's been
awhile Since I can say I love myself as well And
it's been awhile Since I've gone and fucked things up
just like I always do And it's been awhile But all
that shit seems to disappear when I'm with
you
And everything I can't remember As fucked
up as it all may seem The consequences that I've
rendered I've gone and fucked things up
again
Why must I feel this way? Just make this
go away Just one more peaceful day!
And it's
been awhile Since I could look at myself
straight And it's been awhile Since I said I'm
sorry And it's been awhile Since I've seen the way
the candle lights your face And it's been
awhile But I can still remember just the way you
taste
And everything I can't remember As
fucked up as it all may seem to be I know it's me I
cannot blame this on my father He did the best he
could for me
And it's been awhile Since I
could hold my head up high And it's been
awhile Since I said I'm sorry
5. Change
If ever you had said to me
before That I would live this life that I
am Living now I guess it's all so strange To feel
the way I do inisde but Have so much that I could
feel some pride for in my life so why is it that I
feel like this
How do I feel? I've been here
before. I've felt this. Retreat to a place, a
place within. I need this. Keep it all down, bottled
inside It breaks me to torment again and torture
me like it used to.
I try and try to break away
from all the hate I'm feeling for every one of you
that's ever done me wrong. I need to justify the
reasons for the way I'm living. I guess I can't
'cause I don't feel like I deserve it
How do I
feel? I've been here before. I've felt
this. Retreat to a place, a place within. I need
this. Keep it all down, bottled inside It breaks me
to torment again and torture me like it used
to.
So now the waves they have subsided And my
soul is bleeding I can't take away the shame I feel.
Forgive me.
How do I feel? I've been here
before. I've felt this. Retreat to a place, a
place within me. I need this. Keep it all down,
bottled inside It breaks me to torment again
and torture me like it used
to.
AGAIN!
6. Can't Believe
Respect Respect is what is
found Respect should be abound Respect everything
that you leave
(I can't believe) Can't
Believe
And I, I can't believe I can't believe
all the travesty Surrounding me, I , I want to
flee I want to flee from everything In front of
me!
Can't Believe
Never again, trusted in
you Fuck everything you think I should be I stand,
never again, never again -- Can't
Believe
7. Epiphany
Your words to me just a whisper Your
faces so unclear I try to pay attention Your words
just disappear
'Cause its always raining in my
head Forget all the thing's I should have
said
So I speak to you in riddles because My
words get in my way. I smoke the whole thing to my
head and feel it wash away 'cause i don't take
anymore or this, I want to come apart. or dig
myself a little hole inside your precious
heart
'Cause its always raining in my
head Forget all the things I should have
said
I am nothing more than a little boy
inside That cries out for attention though I
always try to hide 'Cause I talk to you like
children, Though I don't know how I feel But I
know I'll do the right thing If the right thing is
revealed
'Cause its always raining in my
head Forget all the things I should have
said
8. Suffer
Suffer
The more you see the more
you do The television's feeding you. With what You
want to hear, anger and fear, because you
suffer
The hate you feel won't go away you're all
programmed to feel this way to live another day
within a world That loves to suffer
And then I
come to find everything's O.K. seen this all before
but that was yesterday. I try to walk right through
the messes that I've made just let me enjoy the life
here that I've made
I've tried to give it all to
you. Can't take anymore to do with this. It hurts
inside. I know why I hide 'cause I suffer
I
tried to keep it all inside didn't leave me too
much pride forced it all down inside forced myself to
make me suffer
And then I come to find
everything's O.K. seen this all before but that was
yesterday. I try to walk right through the messes
that I've made just let me enjoy the life here that
I've made
And then I come to
find
9. Safe Place
Another day Inside my world I'm
married to you and this road. A road that never
lets me sleep . So theres no way to escape
the demons I am forced to keep.
And then I
find you here Through your eyes Everything's
clear And I'm home Inside your arms, But I'm
alone for now.
I mean the best with what I
say. It doesn't always sound that way I never
learned to Work things out cause In my family all
we Ever seem to do is shout
But then I find
you here Through your eyes, everythings
clear And I'm home inside your arms, but I'm
alone for now.
And when I try to sleep- the
drugs I take are killing me - I think of you to
ease my pain - but you're so far- Now it's time to
say goodbye. I love you baby please don't cry
- 'cause then I'll find you here - Through your
eyes everythings clear - and I'm home inside your
arms - but I'm alone for now.
But then I find you
here Through your eyes, everythings clear And
I'm home inside your arms, but I'm alone for
now.
10. For You
To my mother, to my father, It's your
son or it's your daughter, Are my screams loud enough
for you to hear me? Should I turn this up for
you?
I sit locked inside my head Remembering
everything you've said This silence gets us
nowhwere! Gets us nowhere way too fast!
The
silence is what kills me I need someone here to help
me But you don't know how to listen And let me
make my decisions
'Cause I sit here
locked inside my head remembering everything you've
said The silence gets us nowhere! Gets us nowhere
to fast!
All your insults and your curses
make me feel like I'm not a person And I feel like
I am nothing but you made me so do
something 'Cause I'm fucked up because you
are Need attention, attention you couldn't
give
I sit here locked inside my
head Remembering everything you've said This
silence get us nowhere! Gets us nowhere way to
fast
11. Outside
And you Bring me to my
knees Again All the times That I could beg you
please In vain All the times That I felt
insecure For you And I leave My burdens at the
door
But I'm on the outside I'm looking
in I can see through you See your true
colors 'Cause inside your ugly You're ugly like
me I can see through you See to the real
you
All the times That I felt like this won't
end It's for you And I taste What I could never
have It was from you All the times That I've
cried My intentions Full of pride But I
waste More time than anyone
But I'm on the
outside And I'm looking in I can see through
you See your true colors 'Cause inside you're
ugly You're ugly like me I can see through
you See to the real you
All the times That
I've cried All this wasted It's all inside And
I feel All this pain Stuffed it down It's back
again And I lie Here in bed All alone I
can't mend But I feel Tomorrow will be
OK
But I'm on the outside And I'm looking
in I can see through you See your true
colors 'Cause inside you're ugly You're ugly like
me I can see through you See to the real
you
12. Waste
You mother came up to me She wanted
answers only she should know Only she should
know
It wasn't easy to deal With the tears
that rolled down her face I had no answers
'cause I didn't even know you
But these
words They can't repace The life you... ...the
life you waste
How could you paint this
picture? With life as bad as it should seem That
there were no more options for you I can't explain
how I feel I've been there many times before I've
tasted the cold steel of my life crashing down before
me
But these words They can't repace The
life you... ...the life you waste
Did Daddy
not love you? Or did he love you just too
much? Did he control you? Did he live through you
at your cost? Did he leave no questions for you to
answer on your own?
WELL FUCK THEM! AND FUCK
HER! AND FUCK HIM! AND FUCK YOU! For not
having The strenght in your heart To pull
through! I've had doubts! I have failed! I've
fucked up! I've had plans! Doesn't mean I
should take My Life With my own hands
But
these words They can't repace The life
you... ...the life you waste
But these
words The don't replace The life you... THE
LIFE YOU WASTE
13. Take It
I feel like this won't go away no
matter how hard I try to squeeze my eyes shut so i
can't see the pain in you this pain in me - in
me
But everything that I can say to you Won't
help you - everything you need is right in front of
you Just take it
I know that I am really not
here to represent what I am not clear About in my
head sometimes I feel fucked up just like you do -
like you do
But everything that I can say to
you Won't help you - everything you need is right in
front of you Just take it
Try to make it
through the daily pain That you feel - maybe tomorrow
won't be so bad. It know it 'cause I once felt
that way Nothing I could say Made it go away I
lived through this I still feel this I just live
for my tomorrow
Make it go away Just make it
go away She'll make it go away
Failed to see, How destructive we can
be. Taking without giving back, 'Til the damage
can be seen, Can you see? Can you see?
The
more you take, The more you blame, But everything
still feels the same. The more you hurt, The more
you scream, The price you pay to play the
game, Then all you see, And all you gain, And
all you step on without shame, There are no
rules, No one to blame, The price to play the
game.
Empathy, the chosen way to be, Blindly
look the other way, While you waste away with
me, Can you see? Can you see?
The more you
take, The more you blame, But everything still
feels the same. The more you hurt, The more you
scream, The price you pay to play the game, Then
all you see, And all you gain, And all you step on
without shame, There are no rules, No one to
blame, The price to play the game.
What you
pay to play the game, What you pay to play the
game, What you pay to play the game, What you pay
to play the game.
The more you take, The more
you blame, But everything still feels the
same. The more you hurt, The more you
scream, The price you pay to play the game, Then
all you see, And all you gain, And all you step on
without shame, There are no rules, No one to
blame, The price to play the game.
What you
pay to play the game, What you pay to play the
game, What you pay to play the game, What you pay
to play the game.
2. How About You
If someone else showed you the way
would you take the wheel and steer? it hurts me
that you're not ashamed of what you're doing
here if they jumped off a bridge would you meet
them on the ground? or would you try and
claim that it never made a sound
everyone
plays the hand they're dealt and learns to walk
through life themselves not everything in life is
handed on a plate when people think your words are
true it doesn't matter what you do i sold my soul
to get here how 'bout you?
so you choose to
force your hand what a strange way to make
freinds and you always change the rules so the
drama never ends and you blindly go through
life judging only by what its worth just try not
to forget that the meek inherit
earth
so please don't take
offense this is just a point of view cuz i'm the
only one who will say these things to
you
3. So Far Away
This is my life its not what it was
before all these feelings i've shared and these
are my dreams that i'd never lived before somebody
shake me cuz i i must be sleeping
now
that we're here, it's so far away all the struggle
we thought was in vain all in the mistakes, one
life contained they all finally start to go
away now that we're here its so far away and i
feel like i can face the day i can forgive and i'm
not ashambed to be the person that i am
today
these are my words that i've never said
before i think i'm doing okay and this is the
smile that i've never shown before
somebody
shake me cuz i i must be sleeping
i'm
so afraid of waking please don't shake me afraid
of waking please don't shake me
4. Yesterday
You don't know what you've put me
through it's okay, i've forgiven you but in some
way, hope it fucks with you hope it fucks with
you
that i'm okay and i've made it
through i'll say no names, though i've wanted
to isn't it strange how it seems
like...
yesterday, a boy and already
afraid locked deep inside, my place to hide to
hide from how you made me feel and i wonder how's
your brother did he end up fucked up like me? lost
in himself, crying for help it's safe to say i
learned to live without a pride just a shell, with me
stuck on the inside a prison, not a place to
hide not a place to
hide
yesterday, a boy and
already afraid locked deep inside, my place to
hide to hide from how you made me feel and i
wonder how's your brother did he finally pull through
like me? finding himself, not needing help i'd
like to say
5. Fray
I know that it never goes away all i
feel, everything i'm not today so i try and i try to
make everything right i don't feel like i'm doing it,
it affects me
you wouldn't listen even if
i told you who the fuck am i to say? you're too
busy with the lies they sold you another cure to fix
your day open wide for all the shit they feed
you while you watch the TV delecates and blindly
walk wherever they will lead you while the edges
slowly fray
i know that everything can
change what i need is to open up again so never
again will i look back in vain cuz today's not the
past, i don't need to relive it
are
you satisfied? i've given all i can and are you
pacified or do you want more from
me?
i've learned that this life's not
just a game just a line between the pleasures and the
pain
6. Zoe Jane
Well i want you to notice to notice
when i'm not around and i know that your eyes see
straight through me and speak to me without a
sound
i want to hold you protect you
from all of the things that this liife has in store for
you i'll always love you the way that a father
should love his daughter
when i walked out this
morning i cried as i walked to the door i cried
about how long i'd be away for i cried about leaving
you all alone
sweet zoe jane
[x2]
so i wanted to say this cuz i wouldn't
know where to begin to explain to you what i have
been through to explain where your daddy has
been
sweet zoe jane
[x2]
7. Fill Me Up
I just had to let you know cuz i
don't always let it show you give me needed room to
grow and i just had to tell you so
you
fill me up, you're in my veins a look could take
my breath away and all these things, you give
away sometimes i take for granted it's just like
poetry inside to hear you breathing by my side like
i'm in heaven and i've died so glad you're with me
for this ride
i see your face to start my
day makes my all bad dreams go away and all the
stupid games we play wouldn't have it any other
way
<
B>8. Layne
I heard today that you were gone i
had to stop and sing along the song they played to
say goodbye a song they gave, give me back
life
you'll never fade the words you
gave my life you saved your name was layne and
on that day a child was born to someone who you
helped along and helped see through his darkest
times because of you, this child she is
mine
the words you said, you made
me feel like they were all for me the words you said,
they will always be a part of me the words you said,
you made me feel like i was not alone the words you
said, you gave me all the strength to carry
on
so to me you'll never fade your
life you gave my life you saved your name was
layne
9. Falling Down
What's happened to you? it's obvious
you've changed something deep inside you is probably
to blame must be lonely up there with your head up in
the clouds even though you got there what does your
conscience tell you now?
it's never the
same on the way down how does it feel when your feet
finally hit the ground? when all of your bridges
aren't around and the sandcastles you built are
falling down you had us all sitting right there in
your hand but you had to fall because that's how this
life is got your fingers burned by burning candles at
both ends now the table's turned and now your demons
are you freinds
so now i question
what you're gonna do now that everything's gone with
you you believe the shit you say is true but
everybody's on to you life remembers everything you
do your karma has caught up with
you
10. Reality
The lights are on but you're not
home you've drifted off somewhere alone somewhere
that's safe, no questions here a quiet place where
you hide from your fears
sometimes when
you're out of rope the way to climb back up's
unclear the walls you build around yourself i
guess they also keep you there are you afraid of what
they thing? whoever they happen to be or are you
hiding from the scars of your own reality?
so you
sedate and drown in vain you've got a pill for every
day a suit and tie to mask the truth its ugly head
is starthing to show through
the
monster you're feeding, your lack of
perception the things you will do to fullfill
addictions the light at the end of your tunnel is
closing what is it that you're so afraid of
exposing? you'd give it all up for what's there for
the taking whatever it takes to keep your hands from
shaking the same things you're thinking might make
you feel better the same things that probably get you
here
11. Tonight
Just try to understand this isn't what i
planned this ride's out of my hands so now i'm
forced to be something i can not be if only i could
make you see
tonight i'm alive i've
watched you all grow up and so have i inside this
isn't really what i had in mind i no longer relate to
this world of hate that's forced upon my plate i
tend to disagree, i hope its not just me, alone if
only i could make you see
12. Could It Be
Well i don't know what to say because
there's truth to what you say i know it kills you i'm
this way there's something different every
day
could it be that i never had the
chance to grow inside? could it be that sometimes i
say things just to disagree? could it be that i'm
only being me?
not easy living in my mind a
little peace is hard to find my every thought is
undermined by all the history
inside
i know i hear the words
you said over and over again i just can't get them
through my head there's just too many voices must
be like living with the dead waiting for me to
begin to do the things i have said and for this
i'm sorry so there's some truth to what you
say
13. Blow Away
Live in my head for just one day i
see myself andlook away the road is showing now on my
face soon i'll disappear disappear without a
fucking trace
faces that i've seen turn
old and grey i've lost too many freinds along the
way memories i never thought would fade they fade
and blow away
i wish that icould disappear
unzip my skin and leave it here so i could be no
one again and never let nobody, i'd let
nobody i'd never let nobody in
so now
the walls are closing in because in life you sink or
swim sometimes these shoes don't feel right in my
head feel like a book that can't be read, a book
that can't be, a book that can't be
read
14. Intro
Thank you to the people in my life
for putting up with me and thank you for the time
you sacrificed all on account of
me
for all the times i didn't say the
times i didn't say for all the times i didn't
say the times i didn't say
fuck you to the
jaded and the fake like to see what you would
do fuck you and the judgements you make we're not
all perfect just like you, like you, like
you
all the times i didn't say
[x2] thank you to the people in my life for putting
up with me
